Friday, July 31, 2009

sometimes i feel i'm a little stubborn? or perhaps not easily giving up on something which i think i might be able to see some success..deres a saying if one show determination in making something to happen..as in..lets take growing a plant for example...it all starts from a small seed....we cant just buried it in the soil and than just do nth abt it...instead we must showered it with constant watering of the soil and making sure it gets the sunlight...this way it will grow to beome a healthy plant...and it comes with patience and perhaps perserverence ba i guess... but wad if no matter how much effort u put in doing all this..the result is somehow the same? or...cant say we expect something in the end...but at least...showing a little appreciation would be nice isnt it?

maybe i have been putting in too much effort in something i've been doing this mth or so...and each day i slowly get to realise that...wad i'm doing isnt really appreciated and perhaps been taken for granted and maybe its become a habit...i don really expect anything to be honest...but i feel...maybe i shldnt carry on anymore...dats wad my friends all told me too...but i guess i'm just a little too stubborn and naive to think that...if i'm determination and perservere to stay on and carry on wad i'm doing...miracle might happen? its as though i'm buying a train ticket knowing that the train will not come..but somehow i'm hoping for a miracle to happen..which i slowly realise its not gonna happen anyway...now or in the future...dats the way it is....so thats y....with me say this...i guess...its time that i shld move on le....

its really been a long long wait for train to arrive when i already know it will nv come..but stubborness just stopped me from leaving the train station...i was feeling down......down...and down...for some period of time... and although i had some good memories....i think its enough for me to put a end to all this waiting..=)

Its Friday...but honestly...it doesnt seems like Friday to me anyway..cause my mood isnt set in the right day..it seems like tuesday in my mind...cause i wanst really ready and havent really adjust my mood to how its suppose to be...but at least i've sth to look forward to later in the evening~ as for weekends...no plans for the moment yet~ maybe i'll plan sth... so ya...

{ i was alone at 1:35 pm}

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Wednesday, July 29, 2009

DeRe's A SaYing.....If yOu GeT A goOd StaRt To SomeThing......thE EnDinG woUld Be A SmoOth And Nice One....foR Me I GuesS i GoT Off To a goOd StaRt THis weEk?

I Went tO MeEt A FRienD Of MinE Whom I SomehoW KneW fOr....Lets Just Say Many yeArs...sO SomEhOw We Met CaUse sHe WannA IntRo a Friend Of Hers to Me....So i Said Okie ar..=) i GueSs No HarM KnoWing MoRe Friends Rite??

AnyWay I Guess EveRyThinG WenT Well...CausE I Was ActuAlly a LittlE UpTight and Nervous aT the stArt hahah.. I GUess It wAs a New ExpEriEnce For Me....and wAs Quite hapPy That We ActuaLly chat aloT and Got Along Well...hmm Not Sign Of AwkwaRdness Or WadSoEva....eVErythiNg Just Seems So SmooThly.....

So AfTeR That feW houRs Of Outing With Them...I FeeL so RelaxiNG aS I HavEnt FeLt This WAy foR someTime Le anD i reAlly FElt gooD......The Drinks...The Pizza....The LIve Band....The AtmoSpheRe....The View Of CBD AreA.... And Off Course The ComPany Of 2 Nice & FrieNdlY Ladies..=)

So Just Wanna Say a Big ThanKs To My FRienD For MakiNg THat dAy PossIblE...=p

Hmm i Come AcrOss A Song Which I Found It Quite MeaningFul

Debbie Gibson_-_Lost In Your Eyes

been Drivng Home at Nite Lately so Always Tune In To Class95 For Their Love Songs..and it Just Brings back All Those Memories Whenever i Listen to All those Songs...=) If You Like these Genre Of Song...Do Listen To clAss95 ....9pm - 1am and onwards.....so datS wad i have to saY ba....

{ i was alone at 1:50 pm}

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Friday, July 24, 2009

As usual...i havent been blogging lately..hmm but somehow i feel the urge to just crap around here..which i don even know...who will be so free to still drop by? haha... alrite back to where i started..hmm...its been nearly 6mths...and i'm still leading my life... the usual way...though along this way i met a few ppl...oh well...

hmm the main reason y i actually blog is because last nite while i was driving home..was listening to class 95FM and the DJ share a real-life story which i guess its from one of the listeners who send it in....i thought was really very touching and i personally feel is very meaningful and perhaps true.....alrite i'll share it here....

Dere's this guy who actually know this girl thru a online social website...somehow he added the girl and left her a msg asking if they could be friends....some days later...the girl accepted his requested and than they started to chat on msn.....at first...things were still going okie...but than..after a few sessions of chatting with the guy....somehow the girl realise that the guy wasnt really what she had hope or perhaps wan in a guy...its the personality of the guy...hmm low-confidence and the way he speak.. that make the girl somehow didnt really wanna chat with him after dat...and true enough after sometime..they were not chatting with each other anymore...

but abt 1-2 years later.....when the guy started to go out to work...and somehow he has changed his personality and the way he look at himself and everything...a change for the good i should say...and he no longer used the old online social thingie le..instead he sign up for a new one.....and just one fine day..he receive a request from a girl...and she asked if he still rmb her? and when the girl told him that she was the same girl whom he chatted with some yrs back...

And thats where the love started....the somehow email each other everyday without fail...first thing in the morning...and somehow things are diff from the previous time...the girl feel that he's change since the last time they chat...and somehow when the guy ask her out...she actually agreed....=) and after going out for abt a mth or so.......they got together...=p and it was their 1st anniversary together ytd...

well after hearing it..the first thing that came into my mind was...wow..=) envy.....but all i can say was...at that time when they first met....i guess the timing wasnt rite..cause the guy wasnt really very confident abt himself and everything...but somehow after a few yrs when they eventually met again..things are a little different..cause of the working exposure and things he been thru..he learn to be more confident in everything he does...and somehow dat attracted him to the girl...and dats y...the timing was right..=)

i don know how ur see this..but i think its really meaningful as in.......sometimes....when love comes knocking on ur door the right time...u will open the door to it...but if it doesnt come in the right time...no matter wad u do...it just don seem to happen...

honestly..i learn alot just from this simple few minutes of story....it taught me to see things in another way...so..even if i don make it this time round..at least i know i've tried to make it work and maybe..wait..for the right timing ba~

{ i was alone at 2:12 pm}

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