Friday, February 27, 2009

i guess i neglected this blogspot too much..havent been here for quite some time again? as usual couldn't remember when was the last time i blog...anyway many many stuffs happen again~ yup seems like i'm always repeating the same stuff whenever i nv blog for very long...

Well perhaps i shld start with my......love....life??? it has never been a easy road for me all this yrs..ups and downs..perhaps i shld say dere are so much downs and so less ups? till i feel i really don wanna do anything le...perhaps u people reading might think i'm heartless man~ a 3 yrs relationship i can just end like dat...i admit i was a little mean..but i felt dat if i don end it up..it will be quite miserable to me and to her~ we just have too many clashes le....the things i like to do..she doesnt..likewise ba... maybe ur wondering y until now than say all this.. hmm...i have no answer for myself too..its the feelings ba.... my heart is like a machine...at first its running on full fuel...but as time passes it gets drained out ...until one day it just totally die out and u don even wanna go refill it anymore....dats how bad it gets...

though i'm not used to it..but at least i feel less troubled and i guess i prefer how things are going for me everyday...even though its just me myself and i.....i'm lonely..but i will try not to think ba~

i guess humans are weird creatures..at least i think i am one...when i was single..i hope to have a gf but when i'm attached i yearn for freedom.... perhaps its down to how the relationship builds up and everything etc etc...every minor thing will play apart to determine how each individuals mindset think as in whether where will he yearn for freedom even if he/she is attached..eh..i think i'm making the phrase quite confuse..ok! in short its just dat......how 2 person gonna make a r/s work...and how both gonna compromise each other..=) i guess mine didnt work out...so ya~

i would say....things just ain't meant to be..... the more i wanted freedom...now i got it...at least for now i'm gonna have a new start to everything....... i hope i wont regret my decision~

{ i was alone at 2:16 pm}

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